So Far So Good

So Far So Good

It’s been a while since I last post a blog post here —  495 days to be exact.

“Why has it been this long?” you asked.

Stopped dead on my track, I found the answer not comforting.


I’ve been deceived.

By the four words that comes out to others’ “How are you?”

That slowly numbing, mindlessly thrown “So far so good.”


I should have stopped and asked myself how I am really doing.

I should have treated myself how I’d have treated others.

But.. Isn’t it too late to start now?



*photo credits: by Matheus Guimarães from Pexels

Is Your Mission as Morale as Google’s?


It’s Friday morning. May 8th 2015. A surprise.

I was added to a Whatsapp group called “Young MENSA Indonesia”. There, I joined the “SIG (Special Interest Group) Books”. As the name suggests, it’s a group of people taking interest in reading, of any kind of books. (Thanks for not puling a prank on me, Erik!)

But, what is my mission in joining Mensa?

Mission: Definition

Type “mission definition”, in and you are likely to find these three definitions:

  1. An important assignment carried out for political, religious, or commercial purposes, typically involving travel.
  2. The vocation or calling of a religious organization, especially a Christian one, to go out into the world and spread its faith.
  3. A strongly felt aim, ambition, or calling.

Upon reading the third one, I heard a whisper, “Do I have it?Continue reading “Is Your Mission as Morale as Google’s?”

Elastic Heart – A feeling often felt and left at being felt?

Elastic Heart – A feeling often felt and left at being felt?

There is a saying that when you don’t expect you won’t get hurt. However, a friend of mine, an unholy human being, couldn’t manage to have no hope, whether the hope for better living, better environment, or better human relationship.

With an expectation that I would be able to help her go through the depression she has been feeling for years, she told me a story, a story shared but never truly told.

A year has passed, the sound of the images I had captured in my mind is still buzzing, like it was just yesterday.

I was having uneasiness every morning at the office (the internet said I was having butterflies in my belly). It happened for a few months before I went to a psychologist, Continue reading “Elastic Heart – A feeling often felt and left at being felt?”